DVD Scene Selections
You know how when you are watching your favorite movies on dvd and you can go to the main menu and select scene selections and you get to pick exactly your favorite parts. You can replay these parts and infinite amount of times over and over at your heart’s desire. You can skip the not so good parts, the confusing parts that cause you to think too much, too hard, the sad parts, the heartwrenching parts. It’s as if those don’t even exist.
I have learned I tend to do the same thing with my life, past experiences, relationships. I go back and watch my favorite parts over and over until my mind gets hot from all the thinking and reminiscing. I replay the romantic parts, stop, freeze frame, slow motion through the sleepy mornings in my bed, cuddling legs and arms intertwined. The kisses outside my front door and replayed again in super slow motion so I can remember how every detail felt. The warm summer air, hands gliding on my back and holding onto waist never wanting to let go. The time he introduced me as his girlfriend, and the time he kissed me in the bar in front of all our friends. I stop at the parts where we would lay on my couch for hours just enjoying being together so comfortable with each other. These are my favorite scenes that have been played out in my life.
The parts I skip over are probably more important but it’s so easy to just skip over those and hold on to the better ones, the happy feelings. I skip the confusion that he caused in my mind the never truly knowing how he felt, the lack of consistency, mixed signals, not knowing if he was going to wake up tomorrow and feel differently or not.
Regardless of the feelings mentioned about the feelings felt real and they were good, so good! I fell for the first time hard, head over heels. I was in it. For some reason I never managed to get these feelings out there, until the very end. It was too late. I ended up broken hearted, alone, lost and devasted. Now all I have left are my favorite scenes.
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